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Goodbye to All That - Impressions and Expressions of Ijon
April 15th, 2002
04:35 pm


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Goodbye to All That
I've just notified the members of my regular (weekly) role-playing party that I am aborting our ongoing game (role-players call this a 'campaign'), because I just can't find the peace of mind necessary to plan and run the game any more. It's because of The Situation -- the war between Israel and the Palestinians, and the political mess that begot it and that surrounds it still -- and all my players shook their heads and said that I shouldn't take it so bad; that I shouldn't let the terrors that surround me (and them!) prevent me from indulging in imaginative role-playing, in imagined realities and stories of fictional human beings; that I should hang in there, especially now. But I can't. I just can't find the gumption necessary to play, or run, a role-playing game.

What I am doing more of these days is publicly discussing politics. I've begun participating in debates held in this forum (Hebrew), and am contemplating various avenues of activism I might enter.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Jacques Brel - Le plat pays

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Date:April 16th, 2002 05:38 am (UTC)
אם חושבת שאם הייתי עוסקת ב"מצב" כל הזמן, לא הייתי מסוגלת לתפקד משום בחינה שהיא. יותר ממה ש"המצב" מדכא אותי, מדכאת אותי העובדה שאין לי ולשכמותי שום דרך להשפיע. אני מוצאת בדרכי האקספיזם השונות מפלט, אם כי לעיתים אוכלת אותי המחשבה שאדם אינטליגנטי ומודע שחי בישראל אינו יכול להתעלם ממה שקורה סביבו. אבל כאמור, חוסר יכולתי להשפיע גורמת לי לתהות למה אני בכלל צריכה להתעסק בזה.

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Date:April 19th, 2002 11:21 am (UTC)

Bring along your gumption and all the rest...

"I just can't find the gumption necessary to play, or run, a role-playing game."

Admittedly a non-participant in the role-playing phenomenon,
I can't reconcile the use of the word "gumption" as I understand it, in this sentence, in the context of what you wrote about your present response to the here-and-now Situation.

Rather, let me be among those who welcomes you (back) to wherever you'll be spending that weekly timeslot. The forums, the streets, the back rooms, the barricades, the keyboard, the other end of the telephone... where your presence will be felt.

Where you will, I assure you, play a role.
And that takes gumption and a whole lot else,
and I do believe you've got what it takes.

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